danganroleplay | Schuldig's Thoughts - Tuesday, July 15

[backstabbery]

The rest of you, don't you claim to be so morally superior to our Headmaster?

Whether you kill them for justice or kill them for something else, does it make them any less dead?

Nobody's nice to me, however cuddly and lovable I am!

The only ones here capable of understanding me are Monobear and whoever controls him. Truly a disgusting thought, isn't it?

Kirei Kotomine: teenage years spent struggling to overcome what he saw as a defect.

How many more of your 'friends' will you allow to die while you 'bide your time'?

You're an inspiration, Cynthia.

No...that's not right.

Isn't it?

People just take and take — they'll love you so long as you give them everything they want.

So what do we want?

The difference is, I want to live, and you don't give a damn either way.

I want to go home.

I wanted to help people.

Such kindness shouldn't be wasted on the defective.

It's not a crime to be who you are! It's not!

I suppose that was my first mistake.

What am I doing wrong?

I can't do this, I'm falling apart, I've been fucked up for weeks and there's no one to rein me in...

Outliving them should be your deepest despair.

I'm not Crawford, I can't do this. I'm not a leader, I don't know what I'm doing!

People like that keep getting killed off around here.

Don't you leave me, too!

They called it Rosenkreuz. A school, like this place is a school. And I was this scrappy, rebellious little fuckhead...

I'm fucked up, I'm messed up. I'm just like I was then.

If you were anything then like you are now, I can understand why he wanted you, you know.

Why?

I'm not going to try to win, mon cher. I've already accepted that I'm going to die here, one way or another.

Oh...don't worry, Schuldig. You're going to live. Even if you hadn't been so clever, I would have died before this ends.

Why?

Why pick me for your winner?

Because I trust you. Because you're willing to do whatever's necessary; because you understand the game better than most here. Because I think you're competent enough to make it that far. Because I think you want to survive enough to go along with it.

Survive, Schuldig. I want you to escape here.

He's trying to divide us, don't you see that?

I wasn't trying to be any sort of hero or anything - I was aware that was beyond me.

You always look as though you're trying to save the world from the edge of a cliff!

And they demanded more and more from me until they practically bled me dry.

I won't let you create any more people like us, who lose the ones we love...

I was serious when I said I would allow you to kill me to escape.

Should we survive long enough to get down to the final four people here, you're going to kill one of those remaining and I'm going to help you win the trial. Do you understand?

So long as you're alive, kid, you get to decide.

How long are you going to wait?!

I can't do this alone!

Maybe I should've done this alone and then I wouldn't have gotten so messed up when Tobias died...

I can't do it!

Warum kannst du nicht?

Because...


Because...


Come with me; I want you.

I picked you.

Überleben, Schuldig.


You who have the capacity to form connections to others — they'll bleed you dry.


Those pitiable guys...always trying to save other people.


Weiss.


Why don't those people stand up for themselves?


How long are you going to wait — for someone to save you?


...



That will make you just like everyone else, and you seem the sort to hate being just like everyone else.




I'm sorry.

I think feeling sorry is what's gotten you into this mess as it is, don't you?

You guys have a really funny way of showing you care.

Wir sind nicht wie alle anderen, auch nicht.

Are you really complaining about something like that?

Shut up, Brad, I love you too.

That sounds more like my telepath. Really, what kind of devil waits around for salvation?

...Yeah. All right.




Feeling better, mon trésor?



...I'll tell you what. You guys hold down the fort in hell.


Und? Sollen wir erwarten Sie?



No. I'll be busy.



Giving it to 'em up here.